Emotionless Stranger

My Thoughts...

Sunday, December 05, 2004

A Second Chance...

Assalamu alaykum

Through our travells in life, some people only have one chance to do things, things of little importance and maybe others of greater significance.
They either as the saying goes 'make it, or break it'
Making it resulting in success, breaking it resulting in faliure.
Once the chance has gone, its only regret thats left. Regret that enough wasnt done or regret that nothing was done.

Others more fortunate might have a lucky second chance thrown thier way. The lucky stars may have been on their side that once.
This may be valued more deeply, again leading to success, or it may be taken for granted, again leading to faliure.

Out of these chances, the greatest one is the journey of life itself.
It may be taken as quickly as it came or there may be some signs that it is coming to an end.
Other times it comes very close to this sudden end but doesnt quite meet it, maybe because of them lucky stars again but what is left is sure a second chance.
A very delicate and precious second chance.

Yesterday, on my journey, I was given this second chance.
After the adrenaline had worn off and id adjusted to the murderous pains in my back and chest, a tear rolled down my pale cheek and said 'Alhamdulillah'.

My pounding head was fiering the 'what ifs?' inside me, bursting to explode.
'What would I have said to my Lord? How would I have faced him?'

Another tear rolled down and said 'sorry'.
Unfortnately that sorry would have been futile, as id been given the chance and the choice. Id taken the choice which lead down the road of faliure rather than 'making' the most of my chance.

Now I have been given another chance to tie up the loose ends on my journey.
But if I said that 'sorry' to you now, would it be futile?
I never said it yesterday but will you accept it from me today?

A stranger is never understood by others but another tear rolls down my trembling face.
It cannot express itself as words will never convey its true meaning.
The words may fill up the ocean but the ocean will still be empty.
But will this tear be enough?
As the only emotion that this stranger can give will you accept it?
Accept it to mean all the love and apologies and all that lies inbetween, a poet so eloquently expresses through his words?

But surely my drop in the ocean will help fill the ocean?

Tears pour down my face uncontrolably, I, unable to stop them.
Its a tear for everyone of you that I have met along my journey through this life.
Please will you accept it?
Its late but dont they say 'Its never too late'?..... Or is it?

Emotionle s s~Stranger passed by on ; ``____x 1:52 PM